Mood: sad :(
Happy thought: candy!
Today I spoke to my supervisor at Meredith about when my last day will be. Now that I have a job lined up and am getting close to figuring out living arrangements, it was time to talk about leaving.
I was actually sadder than I thought I would be. It's not one of those jobs or environments I could see myself working in long-term (just because I'm not a desk job type), but Meredith treated me very well. The people were great and I got some very valuable experience.
Generally, I think it's also sad simply because it's the end of an era. A lot of things are ending kind of all at once and that's not easy.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
17 days and counting
Mood: sad :(
Happy thought: spring breeze
I've been spending a lot of time on campus after classes lately. Usually I'm done at like 3:30 and jet on home. But these days I'm meandering around here and there, visiting with all sorts of people like professors and such.
Part of me feels like I realize that it's all coming to an end very quickly and maybe this is just me squeezing in last-minute visits with everybody before I graduate. It's kind of weird, actually. It's like I feel all of these visits are necessary and are serving as a means of saying good-bye.
First of all, I'm going to be living in Ames. It's a whopping half hour drive. I can come back any time I want. Second of all, nobody ever admits it's goodbye. After every visit I hear "OK, be sure to stop back before you graduate..."
What do you think THIS visit was for? I mean, I'll accept that a month or so beforehand, but when we're down to only a handful of days? ... seems a little weird.
Regardless, it's starting to get sad now. Like I said, it doesn't have to be good-bye if I don't want it to be, but it still is in a way. It's pretty much the same thing with high school. I went back to visit, but the older I got, the weirder it felt to be there again.
And one day that will happen with Drake, too.
Happy thought: spring breeze
I've been spending a lot of time on campus after classes lately. Usually I'm done at like 3:30 and jet on home. But these days I'm meandering around here and there, visiting with all sorts of people like professors and such.
Part of me feels like I realize that it's all coming to an end very quickly and maybe this is just me squeezing in last-minute visits with everybody before I graduate. It's kind of weird, actually. It's like I feel all of these visits are necessary and are serving as a means of saying good-bye.
First of all, I'm going to be living in Ames. It's a whopping half hour drive. I can come back any time I want. Second of all, nobody ever admits it's goodbye. After every visit I hear "OK, be sure to stop back before you graduate..."
What do you think THIS visit was for? I mean, I'll accept that a month or so beforehand, but when we're down to only a handful of days? ... seems a little weird.
Regardless, it's starting to get sad now. Like I said, it doesn't have to be good-bye if I don't want it to be, but it still is in a way. It's pretty much the same thing with high school. I went back to visit, but the older I got, the weirder it felt to be there again.
And one day that will happen with Drake, too.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
18 days and counting
Mood: sluggish
Happy thought: church music
"Cherish your solitude. Take trains by yourself to places you have never been. Sleep alone under the stars. Learn how to drive a stick shift. Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back." ~ Eve Ensler
It's time to be brave.
Happy thought: church music
"Cherish your solitude. Take trains by yourself to places you have never been. Sleep alone under the stars. Learn how to drive a stick shift. Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back." ~ Eve Ensler
It's time to be brave.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
19 days and coutning
Mood: Sentimental
Happy thought: Clean apartment
I was driving to campus today for class and passed the Knapp Center, where there's an electronic sign that flashes "We are Drake Bulldogs." I see it all the time, but never really look at it much.
Today it caught my eye and I read "We are Drake Bulldogs," and before I realized it I was crying like a fool.
The whole semester leading up to graduation has been filled with panic and excitement, but never really sentimentality or sadness... well, maybe a little, but they were negligible in light of everything else I was feeling.
I just suddenly realized that in 19 days I'm going to be leaving Drake. And that's really sad. I can come back, of course. I can come back any time I want. But it'll never be home again like it's been home the past four years.
And it's supposed to be that way, but that doesn't make it less sad.
Happy thought: Clean apartment
I was driving to campus today for class and passed the Knapp Center, where there's an electronic sign that flashes "We are Drake Bulldogs." I see it all the time, but never really look at it much.
Today it caught my eye and I read "We are Drake Bulldogs," and before I realized it I was crying like a fool.
The whole semester leading up to graduation has been filled with panic and excitement, but never really sentimentality or sadness... well, maybe a little, but they were negligible in light of everything else I was feeling.
I just suddenly realized that in 19 days I'm going to be leaving Drake. And that's really sad. I can come back, of course. I can come back any time I want. But it'll never be home again like it's been home the past four years.
And it's supposed to be that way, but that doesn't make it less sad.
Monday, April 26, 2010
20 days and counting
Mood: excited!
Happy thought: Ryan Reynolds movies
Today Roomie and I went to Ames to go apartment hunting. Apartment hunting is always lots of fun because you get all riled up and excited about a new place and all that. The idea of moving is always fun. It's a fresh start and a change of scenery.
We visited about six or so places (some apartments, some townhouses) and we found a couple that we really like. We're not sure if we'll pick one of them or keep looking.
The plan is to move in with her fiancee, so we're hoping we can go see them with him soon so we know for sure.
And as fun as it is to look, it makes it kind of hard to come home to your actual apartment at the end of the day. Haha. It's not a bad place, where I live. But I'm definitely looking forward to moving :P
Happy thought: Ryan Reynolds movies
Today Roomie and I went to Ames to go apartment hunting. Apartment hunting is always lots of fun because you get all riled up and excited about a new place and all that. The idea of moving is always fun. It's a fresh start and a change of scenery.
We visited about six or so places (some apartments, some townhouses) and we found a couple that we really like. We're not sure if we'll pick one of them or keep looking.
The plan is to move in with her fiancee, so we're hoping we can go see them with him soon so we know for sure.
And as fun as it is to look, it makes it kind of hard to come home to your actual apartment at the end of the day. Haha. It's not a bad place, where I live. But I'm definitely looking forward to moving :P
Sunday, April 25, 2010
21 days and coutning
Mood: !!!!
Happy thought: seeing the folks
Today I was milling around my apartment and glanced at the clock. It was 10:30 AM. 10:30AM. No big deal for a Sunday morning.
I continued to shuffle around sleepily for like two minutes before OMG, IT HIT ME LIKE A BRICK WALL.
THREE WEEKS FROM THAT PERFECT MOMENT, I WOULD BE SITTING IN A CAP AND GOWN IN THE KNAPP CENTER...
Holy cow! HOLY COW!
Three weeks is nothing. It's nothing. It's nothing at all.
Unfortunately, I have a lot more than nothing to do between now and then.
Happy thought: seeing the folks
Today I was milling around my apartment and glanced at the clock. It was 10:30 AM. 10:30AM. No big deal for a Sunday morning.
I continued to shuffle around sleepily for like two minutes before OMG, IT HIT ME LIKE A BRICK WALL.
THREE WEEKS FROM THAT PERFECT MOMENT, I WOULD BE SITTING IN A CAP AND GOWN IN THE KNAPP CENTER...
Holy cow! HOLY COW!
Three weeks is nothing. It's nothing. It's nothing at all.
Unfortunately, I have a lot more than nothing to do between now and then.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
22 days and counting
Mood: antsy
Happy thought: those really pretty flowering trees with white petals that blow off in the wind
This weekend is Relays and, naturally, the weather forecast is calling for thunderstorms and wind. It can't be Relays without genuinely crappy weather. Of course, the rest of the week was gorgeous, and we're expecting more gorgeous weather on the other side of the weekend, too. It's just one of those things you can always depend on.
Relays is, of course, a pretty exciting time. People come from ALL over the country to compete, Drake gets a lot of attention (and probably a good amount of money), there's lots of things going on... it's just a good time.
On the other hand... our tiny campus was not built to host THOUSANDS of visitors in addition to the students who live here. Traffic is bad, parking is horrendous, the local campus bars and restaurants are packed to the gills with alumni trying to relive the glory days... the list goes on.
So, I hope it doesn't make me a horrible person for saying this, but I'm looking forward to all these people going back home and giving us our campus back.
Perhaps I'm just a bitter senior.
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